Let Me Off!

Yesterday I mentioned that I would devote a post to the wonderful news I received last night, so here it is!

I was sitting at the dinner table stuffing my face with pizza and salad when the phone rang. I didn't recognize the number and almost didn't answer but something urged me to. Well I'm happy I did because it was the lovely Mrs. I-take-care-of-the-wives-and-girlfriends calling with the news I have been waiting for since October. 

I got my first set of possible homecoming dates!!! It's earlier than I expected and so far not in conflict with any exams, which is amazing, She also gave me some news about where we will be able to pick them up and how soon after they arrive they plan on having them released to us. All in all good news. I do realize this is all subject to change at any time, but I'm kinda hoping it sticks within the time line she gave me because it works perfectly for my life. I know that sounds incredibly selfish but it's the truth. 

I still don't understand why I'm not more excited... 

I'm kind of scared to be honest, well actually I'm feeling a lot of emotions about the whole thing. 

To me, the timing of the news and the news itself is like taking me off the roller-coaster of deployment and throwing me straight onto the teacups before I've even realized what's hit me. (And my news I am referring to both what CB told me and the phone call). I just thought I had figured shit out and the rules are about to change on me, AGAIN! I can not wait to get off this ride and go back to something simpler, like the carousel. 

All My Worrying Was Well Waisted

As of today CB reassured me that neither plan A,B, or C are required. We are going with plan D. What is plan D? Apparently it involves CB not coming home on any of the dates I have exams scheduled. So far I must admit I like this plan, BUT I am not throwing out plan A,B, or C just yet. I think I will keep them on the back burner, just in case. Better safe then sorry.

He called today and it was the most wonderful phone conversation. I got to tell him about my horrible experience last night at a country bar, the one where I got all dressed up and excited to go out dancing only to be surrounded by cowboy hats and line dancing..... I may need to dedicate a post entirely to this evening filled of WTF events and  FML moments.

We talked a bit about homecoming and our expectations. He, clearly in "man mood", got extremely excited when I told him I would start cooking for him. I use to let him do it because a) it's his house, b) he never asked and I didn't want to over step, and c) when the food didn't taste good, I got to blame him hehe.

He didn't really understand what I meant by overstepping. I explained to him that because of the way we started out I was scared he would revert back to his old self if it was too much too soon and scare him off. Besides he never asked so I had no idea it's what he wanted. Obviously all men want to be cooked for, and I did on occasion but I also felt it was his territory and I didn't want to just walk right in and take over his kitchen.

His response was cute but hand my mind going into girly-overdrive. Asides from his answers about the cooking and what not he tells me I could never scare him off and if anything he is going to scare me off.
Scare me off how, I ask.
*long silent pause* umm...I..uh... Cause I'm crazy?
But you were crazy before you left, I still love you
Yea well, you'll see....
I make a few jokes about the only way he'll scare me off is if he gets off the bus pregnant, we laugh and he changes the subject to his friend wedding.

I think I have heard/read/seen too many movies,stories, and blogs about proposals after deployment because my mind cant help but keep going there over "hints" that are non existent! I'm turning normal conversational pauses into "hints"! Oy...

Back to what he did say! He did actually tell me that he was impressed with how well I was handling everything, he was pleasantly surprised. I must admit, this pleasantly surprised me! I didn't think I was handling it all that well, at all!!! Hmm, see you do learn something new everyday!

And on that note, it's back to the textbooks.

100 Days

Tomorrow marks the 100th day since I have seen CB in person. 100 days!!!!!
This leaves me with mixed emotions. I am excited because 100 days is a huge accomplishment and means the end is near. I am also sad that it's been just as long since I've gotten to hold him, kiss him, and spend quality time with him. I never thought I would be happy to say "It's been 100 days since I've seen my boyfriend" but I am!
68-ish days to go.

The new issue is..... MIDTERMS!! I've never had classes yet that have double midterms, and so far 2 of my 3 do. Guess when they are scheduled? That's right! When he is roughly due home. My imaginary countdown date is March 18th, and like I've mentioned in earlier posts he's hinted that it will be sooner than that. Well, if you calculate 5.5 months exactly it's March 10th. No big deal right? Who wouldn't want him home a whole 8 days earlier?? It's somewhat of a big deal because that night I have a mid term. I also have one on the 4th. So now my mom and I are praying he comes home somewhere in-between those dates.

I have come up with a few plans as to what I would do if he comes in on either of those dates.

Plan A - Ask my professors if they would be willing to make an exception due to the circumstances and let me right the exam earlier or later. The issues with this is 1) I am only his girlfriend not his wife, so I don't know how willing they would be to make the exception for me, let alone anyone. 2) Them allowing me to do this completely depends on their views and experiences with the military and a bunch of other factors.

Plan B - Fake sick and go get a doctors note so I have a reason to miss the exam. Problems with that are 1) If I ask them to excuse me beforehand they may remember and know I faked sick and not accept my absence. 2) I could spend all day in the doctors office.

Plan C - Give CB my exam schedule and ask him to meet me afterwards. I don't like this plan very much due to 1) I'll have to sit through the exam knowing he's outside waiting and I wont be able to concentrate. 2) I'll end up looking like a blubbering idiot in the middle of campus. 3) I'll miss his actual homecoming! I've been dreaming about that moment of seeing him come off the bus since he left, actually since before he left. I know how much it would mean to him because it would be the first time he actually had someone there to meet him. I would hate to not be there for either of us.

I really don't know what to do... all I do know is that I wont ask my professors until I have a better idea of when he is coming home. I'm open to suggestions and advice! Please help! As for right now I'm just keeping positive about it. The truth is we have no clue when he is due home yet and so while I can start getting prepared there is no need to worry.