Yesterday Was Awesome!

I started my day off bitching and whining that I didn't want to go to school only to log into my school e-mail to find out I didn't have to go! Yay # 1.

I then went on to blog that I wished CB would call and HE DID! Yay #2.
I had caught him on facebook but my chat always screws up with him and constantly shows him offline, then online, then offline, then online, you get the picture, so I asked him to call instead since I had a lot to update him about and I was pleased when he said "Sure, just give me a few minutes." Well, those few minutes dragged into 2 hours. I was scared to get into the shower because I figured as soon as I would put shampoo in my hair the phone would ring. After an hour I realized I couldn't just keep sitting on the couch with my phone in my hands randomly yelling at it "RING!!!!" so I decided to risk getting pulled out of the shower a big soapy mess.

I have to admit it was the most awkward shower I have ever taken. I was so scared I would miss the phone call I left the shower curtain mostly open (yes, I realize this was pointless and really messy), I put my cell phone on max volume, and kept jumping in and out of the shower every time I heard any sort of sound. Needless to say the bathroom floor was a puddle by the time I got out.

Then I was fighting with myself over whether or not I should blow dry my hair because what if I don't hear the phone and miss the call? So I literally blow dried my hair staring at the phone instead of the mirror.... I should have just stuck my finger in an electrical socket, I would've gotten the exact same results in no time.

Anyways, all this to say, the phone call was amazing and exactly what I needed. I also hope I'm not the only crazy person who acts this way when they are expecting a phone call....

Yay # 3 happened at the bookstore, there was no line, they had all my books in stock, and all my books look really interesting, well except for my philosophy one. I almost fell asleep reading the index table.

Yay # 4 took place while on the phone with CB. We were discussing my countdown and he let it slip that they are due back a lot earlier than I am expecting. BUT, but, but I have decided this, while exciting, is not going to change a thing. I am going to continue to countdown to my predetermined date until I know exactly what time I am picking him up at and it's about 12 hours away.

Sometimes It's Just Better To Hang Up

CB called today and I was very glad to hear from him but for some reason our phone call just sucked. It was strained and forced and neither of us had much to say.

We quickly talked about my bad week, he cheered me up with promises that it would only get easier from here out and he would be back with me before I knew it but that this is also something I need to get use to (cue me over analyzing and exaggerating the possible meanings of this). I of course told him this is something I could get learn to accept but that this week I just really hated his job and I was entitled to feel this way. He got a good laugh out of that and we changed subjects.

The new subject was no better. I think I made a BIG mistake. I said too much.
I assumed that CB knew Cece was having a party at his place and that she had asked me to go to Costco with her, I was wrong! Very, very, very wrong.
I casually mentioned how big his living room looked with all the furniture moved, to which he was startled about. He started questioning me as to why Cece had moved things around and I told him it was for the party she had, this is where it started to go downhill. 
What party, he asks.
Her end of the semester school party, the one she asked me to take her to Costco for? Remember?
She never told me or asked me if she could have a party, why did she move all my stuff around?
I don't know, to make room for her quests.... You mean she didn't ask you about the party or tell you we were going to Costco?
No....
This is where it gets even worse
Well, she spent 200$ at Costco on food for the party. Way to go Elle, you kept your mouth shut for what? a week? 
I wont bore you with the blow by blow details, but basically he was pissed and said he wouldn't help her with the bills anymore if she could afford to do this. I tried to rationalize with him that she did mention some friends had given her money to buy the food, this didn't seem to phase him.
And finally the epic failure 
I stupidly open my mouth again and I end up with word vomit. Before I knew what I was saying, I'm telling him how she asked me if I would mind her living with us if CB asked me to move in. I told him what I told her, that we hadn't spoken about it yet so her and I couldn't talk about it.
So I guess the point of my story is I made him upset with her somewhat by accident, he now sees her how I do (which is not wrong), I caused shit where I probably shouldn't have. Oy! Please let this blow over.

I am now off to pass out, I spent all day getting my car to the garage and fighting the crowds at 4 malls. I am exhausted!

Happy Dance!!!

I got my first phone call from CB today!! I almost missed it actually.

I woke up this morning and made my way downstairs to the smell of coffee brewing. Still being half asleep I decided to grab a cup before it had even brewed half the pot, big mistake! Way too strong. Add a little sugar, add a little milk, and sat down to have my morning cigarette with mom.
Out of no where, I thought I heard my phone ringing. I bolted up the stairs, start throwing my duvet around till my phone falls out and I see "Incoming Call - Private Name Private Number". I mentally tell myself don't get too excited, it's probably a wrong number or a telemarketer.
Me: Hello?
Caller:...
Mental thought - there is suppose to be a delay in the timing when he calls, holly shit it might be him! Fuck! Stop getting excited it's probably rogers calling for money.
Me: Hello????
Caller: Hi
Mental thought - YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Me: HI!!!!!!
Caller: Hey, its _____!
Me: I KNOW!!!
I cried as soon as we hung up. It made the situation real. It sunk in that he isn't at regular work, he's at war....
Wow, that was hard to even write...I can't bring myself to say it out loud.

I have to send a care package off ASAP because apparently he's already getting sun burnt and forgot a few things. I'm just waiting for his PS3 game that I pre-ordered to come in early next week. I need to come up with some more ideas of things to send him because he gave me some huge boxes to ship things in and I can't send them like 1/4 full. Any suggestions?




Onto other news
I hate my job!!!!!

Okay so that's not news...Someone give me the strength to at least last till the end of this week before I walk out.

*What I miss about him most today - they way he smells, his cologne, his deodorant, even his sweaty stinky smell. I miss it all!