Monday, February 14, 2011

And Then I Saw Him

I walked into the restaurant at work, on my way to my locker, when I froze in place. Sitting at a table, all by him self, was a soldier. Not just any soldier, but a soldier dressed in uniform identical to CB's. I noticed the combats first and felt the first twinge of pain in my heart. The color of his beret is what caught my attention next and drove the knife in a little deeper.

He noticed me staring and frozen. He got up from his seat and stepped towards me. I stepped back. He said hi and I smiled and nodded. I stood there for a few more moments, it felt like forever, just starring at him and him looking at me. I finally found my words and apologized. I told him I didn't mean to be rude, I was just caught up in wishful thinking. He apologized, gave me a pity smile, and stepped out of my way.

I cried the rest of the way to my locker.

I've gotten use to seeing soldiers, the combats don't make me as emotional as they use to, unless it's a really bad day. It's that damn beret that broke me down. I've seen green, I've seen blue, I've seen  a few.... just not his color. It doesn't help that I'm blind as a bat from far and all I could see if that he had a similar build, height, and weight. And why on earth did he need to stand up? It only confused me more.

Other than that V-day went off without a hitch. I got to ignore the whole day at work, got an e-mail from CB (surprised he even noticed which day it was lol), and ended the night with some great sushi.


  1. I'm really sorry that happened to you. I know what that is like and it is not a good feeling. I hope you are feeling better :)

  2. I have done that...just seeing someone in a uniform and same colored beret can toss me on the crazy wagon.

  3. I'm not used to seeing soldiers in uniform because there aren't many around here. I've only seen one person in uniform here the entire year! Then I go to an airport somewhere in the states and it's like a giant blow in my stomach every man in uniform I see. I know the feeling.

  4. Glad to hear I'm not the only one that loses it over a stranger in uniform :) but at the same time I'm sorry that we've all been there...