Monday, January 3, 2011

Silence And Words Are Equally As Painful

Not speaking to him hurts, being snapped at by him hurts just as much.

I have been longing to hear from him since it had been about a week and was pleasantly surprised this morning when I saw my all time favorite "Private Name, Private Number" on my caller ID. That was quickly squashed.... He decided to quit smoking, which I am very proud of him for but it also leaves me with an extremely edgy and grumpy boyfriend. I, not having gone through the same length of withdrawal from nicotine, did not realize how much this would affect his personality so I asked if everything was okay since he seemed a little off. BAD IDEA!!! He snapped at me and that pretty much ended our conversation, we couldn't get off the phone fast enough after that.

Don't get me wrong, I get that he is moody and all that, I do not take what he said to heart. I just can't help that it hurt me, those phone calls mean the world to me. I'm over it now, kinda. It's the first time we've bumped heads  like that since he's been away. I know it's part of any normal relationship and I keep reminding myself of this, I just wish we could have ended on a happier note.

Onto happier news! Tomorrow I am planning on going on a shopping spree! I have decided to spend the 500$ I won on scratch ticket over the holidays on new clothes! I can't wait!


  1. Yay for winning scratch offs :)

    My hubs is also trying to quit smoking, so I too am dealing with the grumpybutt. I imagine it's a million times harder when he's far away and you can't fix fights. As mean as he gets some days, I try to just let it roll off my back.

    Not much longer and he will be home to you and nicotine free :D

  2. I hope your husband kicks the habit and cheers up! Home or away a grumpybutt is still a grumpybutt lol. Thanks for the positive spin on it :) much appreciated